You did something amazing, beat the odds and finally brought one of your dreams to fruition. The next step is one of the following: You can do the humble brag, you can flex hard or you can make a self-indulging announcement about it through the guise of a 'Thank God' post. Whatever you do you're supposed to own that shit. But never should you reveal how you really feel about said accomplishment:
How you feel like you don't deserve it, how you're not sure if you're actually qualified for that new position, how you don't even know how you made it that far in the first place, and how you're deathly afraid that everyone will find out you're a fraud.
Behind that smug smile of accomplishment,you're shook. You're anxious, paranoid, you've won but something in you is keeping you from feeling like a winner. You, my friend, are suffering from Imposter Syndrome. Imposter Syndrome occurs when you feel like you don't deserve your accomplishments, that it was all luck and somehow your colleagues will find out you're a fraud. It's real and it's under-discussed. But I'm not here to coddle you and deal with whatever mental illness you may be suffering from. I'm here to smack you with some truth:
You're right, you don't deserve your success, you did really make it off luck and if you're not careful they will find out you're a fraud.
BUT FUCK THAT SHIT. You made it and that's all that matters. Being deserving of something is irrelevant, as long as you didn't literally hurt anybody in the process, you're good. Most times positions are given to us so if you feel like you're not the right choice that's not on you, that's on the person who chose you. Brenda who works the hardest in the department and has more accolades than you was the heir apparent to the promotion you got. But don't cry for her, she will get her shot, don't worry about her. And if you feel like you took something from her use your new found power to help her get what you think she deserves. But should you give her what is now yours? FUCK NO.
So what you're lucky. So what the stars and fate aligned to work past your follies and whatever you're lacking. So what the universe helped you secure the win. You can't undo luck, you can't rewrite what is written for you. You are where you're supposed to be. Like Seneca said:
'Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity.'
The best thing you could've realized is that you are indeed a fraud. Keep the act up and fake it while making it. If the boss asks you to create that excel spreadsheet that you're an expert at (as per the resume you lied on) you better go to the bathroom and watch a quick youtube tutorial. Look, if you're colleagues and peers are pointing fingers at you they need to point the finger at their own facades and reveal their own truths about how inadequate they really are.
You are an imposter, we all are. Your job is to never allow yourself to be exposed.
-Earl 'Wolf' Davis